I woke up this morning and asked myself: “what are you really waiting for?” I responded, “You.” Many of times the main thing that's holding us back is ourselves. Whether you believe you’re not good enough, you’re not ready, the time is not right or anything in between: It's still you. Everyone including myself has been subjected to criticizing themselves in the worst way. We beat ourselves up because we don't see the results right away. Society paints a disgusting picture that our timelines should read verbatim: (inserts unrealistic expectation that should be met as we get older), I call bullshit. Three years ago, I was an unhappy freshman in college. I honestly went just to please my parents. Although, the fact I was moving to New York was a major bonus, it also made it that much easier to deal with. I was young, I needed a change in my life. I wanted a new scenery, to meet new people and to have a new purpose. Long story short; I went, I conquered, I didn't drop out but I didn't go back. I’m a firm believer in trying things once, just to know if I ever want to try it again. I might not try that again, we’ll see what the future holds. I will say, I get a little nostalgic sometimes for the fact, my counterparts are graduating this year with degrees. Then there’s me, trying to figure out life the best way I can. Is it crazy that I don't regret it? I’ve never been the person to want to conform to society, I’d rather be free. In class, even when I agreed with the topic I went against it, to challenge myself and to broaden my views. This mechanism has taught me to look at life from a different perspective rather than, the one that we are use to. I don’t know what my future holds but, I do know I won’t hold myself back. While taking this path I have to accept patience and drive into my life. Although opposite, they go hand in hand. Patience is knowing that the energy you put through will go through. Drive is learning to do it before time consumes you. Apart they’re deadly, together they're unstoppable. So NO, I will not be graduating this year from an upscale college or university. My degree is the least of my worries. A piece of paper although helpful, will not define me. I’m choosing the unsafe route, the one only a few have ventured. I’m taking drive and patience as my only mentors.
Without Wax - Chloe RIdore