I remember the night before we went to Quebec, I was scared. I never drove so far in a car. “Mommy why aren't we flying?”, she replied. “Chloe because your Daddy wants to take the scenic route, its longer but i promise it’s way more fun.” So i believed her and she was right. I sat in the backseat as I watched my parents argue over paper MapQuest directions. I fell asleep to their arguments because to me it was a lullaby. I had no choice but to listen, I grew accustomed to tuning them out and appreciating at least having “us” in one place. It was rare but there we were, a “happy family”.
I took a risk this morning and left my phone at my house on purpose. I quickly realized that it was a terrible idea five mins away from my job. I was frantic, “What if my car breaks down?” “What if i lock my key in my car?” “What if I get a flat?” “What if I….?” I thought about every bad thing that could possibly happen in those remaining five mins and panicked. At a point in time I had to calm myself down and think of the best way to overcome the situation. I took the day on and embraced whatever came my way.
I was more focused and I interacted more with my peers and my customers. I usually would be worried with who texted me or who was trying to get in contact with me. I genuinely was worried about the wrong things but, today I wasn't worried. I was focused. I accomplished everything I knew if I had my phone or my apple watch I wouldn't be able to. There I was living in the past of where technology was not as important as it is now. I heard myself think, I was more vigilant and was not consumed by my small hand held device. I thought to myself, “What else have I been missing?” "What else can I accomplish?"
I am now ready to explore.
Without Wax - Chloe Ridore